Random Thought

So I don't even know why I'm doing this. Writing this. I have like 4 or 5 other blog things out there and I made this account. Mostly because I can't remember the names of the other blogging sites, but partly because I'm hoping I'll actually stick to using this site better. It seems kinda user friendlier. Or whatever. I don't even know why I write these things in the first place. That's a lie, yes I do. I know exactly why I write them. Blah. That wasn't why I was writing this though. The reason why I decided to write this blog post was the idea of love and marriage. That idea was so strong in my head that it forced me to go online and actually create an account for the sole purpose of writing these next few thoughts out.

I'm going to start by saying I've never been in love or even close to it. But I do think about the idea of what it means and all that it brings with it. That being said, I wonder how many other people have thoughts about love the way I have. Do they think that having a "one true love" is bullshit? I mean there's 7 billion people on this planet. I honestly don't think that there's just one person out there meant for you. I think there's multiple people that you can fall in love with and be happy with. It's just a matter of timing. You find a certain person and the others fade away.

Speaking of time, I think this just might be a thing with me, but I find it so completely...odd? Mind-boggling? Freaky? To think about how (for some people) you don't even know the person you're going to married to in the future. I don't really know how to explain this concept well so just bear with me here. For those of you who have already found the one you're going to marry or someone you're in love with, that's great, terrific even. For those of us (me) who haven't and who may be slightly pessimistic about the whole idea of love (me), it's weird to think that there's this person (or people like I talked about above) out there going on with their daily life like nothing's wrong in the world. And to not even know what that daily life consists of is even more weird. I just find the whole thing strange. And to add another level of what-the-fuck on top of it would be if that dude has a girlfriend. Like right now, at this moment in time. 10:39pm on a Sunday night. Yeah I have no life, but that's besides the point. And if they were in a serious relationship that's even more bat-shit crazy to me. I guess in the end, it's weird for to think about what the other person could be doing before everything all leads up to that BAM! Hey what's your name moment.

I swear I'm not crazy. I just have these really weird thoughts and this was one of them that was nagging to get out. And now that it is my head feels a lot more empty than before. I'm going to take that as a positive versus a negative.